Truth In Me (:

I'VE MOVED

2009-04-12T11:19:00.000-07:00

I'VE MOVED! (:

WHERE DID I MOVE?
ASK ME!

CORSETS (:

2009-04-01T20:36:00.000-07:00

One of my obessions are now, CORSETS!
Recalling the times during SPM where I presented on CORSETS?
Now, I'm so getting them!

Got all these from FOREVER 21.
All Cherie's fault but it's worth it! ((:

This is my dearest Satin Leopard Corset.

Next up, the Carmen Corset (:

Had my eyes on it before the Leopard one because Cherie say that the Leopard one doesn't suit my character, true enough, I agree with her on that.

Alright, I went over to Cherie's house to upload my Korea trip photos and I've only got 258 of them up into my thumbdrive due to the limited space i've in my thumbdrive. I will get the rest soon and upload them alright? (:

Be patient meanwhile.

convince me to please you...

Chat with Russell

2009-03-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

Had a chat with Russell.
And it seems like the same problem is still bothering him.

I told him there's 2 ways to solve the solution.
And you can only choose one out of the two, there's no way that you can enjoy both.
Greed is the word to use, if you want both to work and enjoy its ultimate benefits.

When I said this to him, somehow I realised this could be applied to me as well.
Sometimes, you just can't have both things.
You will have to let go of one, in order to get the other.
Opportunity cost, it would mean in economic terms.

It's just the effect of your choice.
And eventually what you will be able to get.

Many will say, this is life.
It is so realistic, and it forces you to make choices.
And after making your choices, you either say "thank goodness" or you will say "aiya, why i didn't"
But we have to realise it's through all these that we grow, accumlate experience and know how to handle the future.

Ultimately, you will still have to have a decision when the time comes.
And so, Russell, just do it! (:

JIA YOU, RUSSELL!!!

Holidays

2009-03-26T09:27:00.000-07:00

Alright, long since I last posted.

These photos are taken before I went on my trip to Korea & Shanghai.
Went to Marche and K-box with Cousin and Cherie.

Stared at the stupid photographer, my Cousin!

I look super ugly in this. HAHA!

Alright, next up.
Some ZILIAN PICTURES before I went off to Shanghai (:

I can't upload the photos taken at Korea and Shanghai due to my desktop's default.
So just patiently wait if you want to see them.
HAHA!
It was indeed a fun trip and I really enjoyed it.
Looking forward to more trips like this.
Didn't see my daddy having so much fun for long and didn't spent so much time with him since out last trip to China.
Mummy bought like $700 worth of FACESHOP products and I think that made her very happy, so oh well, if that makes her happy, i'll be too.
But she's a little mad! HAHA!

Now, another update.
Went movie with Cherie, watching the Confessions of a Shopaholic.
A pretty nice movie that will bring you laughter and more laughter.
There are so much more movies we want to watch but all, comedies. haha!
Went over to BPP for some snacks while waiting for my cousin.
And we took photo with her polaroid.
Cousin drove over and we went to Dempsey's Ben & Jerry.
Took even more photos with the polaroid.

A truly lovely day with them.
And they even debated things about Christianity.
And through their debate, I realised that somethings that I've observed during the services that I went with Lester, made sense.

Oh, that slut that I always mention, FLUNKED HER A LEVELS!
Kinda of evil to say it but she deserves it.
Flirting, clubbing, bimbo-ing or I should say lian-ing as she's not pretty but just with a bigger boobs and stuffs, she deserves that! HAHA!

through the storms, i'll still be with you

MARCH SALES

2009-03-05T07:22:00.000-08:00

MARCH SPECIAL

...enjoy your summer with just a click...

Sweetness

2009-03-03T07:36:00.000-08:00

I just read her husband's blog.
& Oh gosh, they are really sweet.
I'm reading like from March 08-Feb 09, it's way entertaining.
Now i see a point in blogging and keeping a copy of your memory, so as time pass by, you will always remember things that people have done for you and likewise, what you did to others.

He's on an attachment now, and I'm leaving to Korea-Shanghai in like a week or two.
I know time is really precious and I do appreciate every single moment, like really.
It may really sound mushy and cheesy here.
But B, thank you for everything!
Work hard for your attachment, no matter how tough are things alright? (:

Speaking of blogs, I read that slut's blog too.
She's truly such a cheesy, flirt, and disgusting ass.
Cheating other's feelings and MONEY!
It is the worst combination ever.
Imagine, you're attached and you have a whole lots of men getting close to you,
& you stick over to them at the same time.
EWWWW!!!
I saw her today at JP, SUPER SUAY, lottery and Toto also not so ZHUN.
Feel like slapping her, she has insulted all women in this world.

Anyway, I'm really tired now, I shall over to bed in a while.
Enjoy your holidays, people! (:

Exams & Chalet (:

2009-03-01T23:22:00.000-08:00

Exams are finally over!

Tourism Law was like a total torture!
I was stunned when I saw the first question, stunned for 3 minutes!
9 marks gone, but oh well, EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

Went to Ivan's birthday chalet after lunch with Lester.
Really enjoyed that short period with my dearest classmates, it has been long since we last had such fun! (:

Ivan with the COCOEXOTIC CAKE!
It's my favourite cake, anyway, we'd that cake for like 2 or 3 times this month!

Preparing to blow...

Going to blow...

WHY ARE YOU STILL MAKING A WISH?

HAHA!
GOTCHA, I WAS FAST ENOUGH THIS TIME, NOT LIKE ALVIN'S BIRTHDAY!
IVAN, YOU SMELL LIKE COCO EXOTIC! (:
Had a movie with my class, "Marley & Me"!
It was an awesome show, like really.
I teared like mad, same goes to the girls.
Even Alvin was going to cry!

Delifrance's food is getting from bad to worse.
Oh gosh, had like lamb stew, but the lamb stinky smell covered the whole bowl.
EWWWW!!!
Played game with Lester, guess what this:

Mixture of tea, soda, pepper, salt, sugar, strawberry syrup and some traces of the strawberry cake.
WOOLALA~
THE LOSER IS GOING TO HAVE THIS!!! (:

&&& LESTER IS SO GOING TO DRINK THIS UP!

BOTTOMS UP! (:
But apparently, I've lost too.
Oh gosh...

Thank goodness it's over, & he's still with me...

Bride Wars

2009-02-16T05:57:00.000-08:00

Went over to Wendy's place on Sunday.
It was very "Thailand" from the outside! HAHA!
I like the glass house a few houses down, very modern and well-furished.
Food was pretty nice, I love the soup.
But apparently, I can't eat much that day, and I don't know why!
Anyway, most importantly;

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, WENDY! (:

Rushed over to meet Jen and Cherie after the party, and it has been long since I last saw them.

Watched Bride's war and it's so recommended! (:

My girls and I had like an additional $1 of cheese with Nachos and Popcorns!
OMG, I DON'T KNOW WE'RE THERE FOR A MOVIE OR FOR MAKAN SESSION?
LOL!
Anyways, it was really a nice comedy and I teared alot.

Alright, this will be last post before exams are over.
Everybody take care and work hard! (:

SABO!

2009-02-14T11:27:00.000-08:00

1. The person who tagged you is?
DANIEL, THAT FATTY BUM BUM! :(

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
HE'S AN ASSHOLE! HAHA!
NO LA, MY GOOD FRIEND, RIGHT???

3. Your first impression of him/her?
WA PANG, HE'S SUPER FAIR!
IS HE HAVING A FEVER?

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Brought me over to Monster Ice at Bugis to eat!
& the person who persuade me to buy a cap.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
I WANT A GF! HAHA!

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
Eh, I think I will get killed by Lester Lam.
Because I chose Snow White over him. HAHA!

7. If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
Get darker with some muscles!

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Get him a girlfriend to torture him. Muahaha!!!

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
Because he's too fair?

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Get him a girlfriend to torture him!

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
Nice, funny, fair, fat and my favourite talking-on-the-phone friend!
I can disturb him anytime I want to! HAHA!

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
Eh...
Ivan says: All people are lame, but you're just lamer?
Friendly? Sociable? Loves to eat? Loves to speak in my own language? Fat? Siao?

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
Everything? If not, why should I exist.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
A little boastful at times.
But hey, I'm trying to control alright?

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Myself?

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them?
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!! ((:
Only you all can tolerate my nonsense but hey, I tolerated yours too! HAHA!
But I still love you guys (:

17. Pass this quiz to 11 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you: (* = COMPULSORY MUST DO!)
1) Xuan Fang
2) Ivan Chong
3) Cherie Chen
4) Chu Wen
5) Shaine
6) Charles Chia
7) My dearest cousin (Poh Leong)
8) Russell
9) Liqin
10) Wendy
11) Howtarts

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
He has plenty of girls, how would I know.
Eh, let me guess...currently his books?

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
That's interesting.
She's bisexual!
Lester's boyfriend!

20. If no.7 and no.10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Oh better not, Wendy's bf will kill my cousin!

21. What is no.2 studying about?
HAHA! Tourism & Resort Management?
& HIS BIKINI-S?

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
I'm going out with her tmr!
Eh, I think a few days ago on the phone and on msn?

23. What kind of music genre does no.8 like?
WA! This is nice!
He likes those songs that I don't like except Butterfly by Olivia Ong!
He likes to be in his own world with his own EMO songs!

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
Yes, one elder brother.
He's quite a poor thing, need to listen to XF's memorising skills everytime!

25. Would you woo no.3?
Do I look like a lesbian?
Anyway, she's too fierce but I LOVE IT!

26. How about no.7?
My cousin? ARE YOU MAD?
Hmm...he's now bald, I don't think I want.
I just want his MARCHE TREAT!!! (:

27. Is no.4 single?
Yes.

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Jack Sim

29. What is no.10’s hobby?
Eh, buy clothes online? Idk!

30. Do no.5 and no.9 get along well?
I suppose not too bad?

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
NP

32. Say something casual about no.1?
XF ah, WO AI NI! (:

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
He's my younger brother, what do you think?

34. Where does no.9 live at?
Fajar, Block 402.

35. What colour does no.4 like?
I think white? She always wear white!

36. Are no.5 and no.1 best friends?
Not best friends but good friends and classmates!

37. Does no.1 have any pets?
Eh, no!
Oh oh, have have!
HER TEDDY BEARS, JUST LIKE YC!

38. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
W/O HIS FATS! (:

39. What is no.10 doing now?
SLEEPING!

HAPPY VALENTINE'S 09

2009-02-14T08:59:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE 09' TO ALL! (:

Alright, need to get into the mushy mood now?
It's the first V-day that I get to spend after 18 years.
Gosh, a little saddening, but at least, I've spent it, finally!

You may just skip the below if you're not interested.

Got him a photoframe with our photo, duh!
I LOOK SUPER UGLY IN THAT PHOTO!!!
Look like i've acne scars or something.
I went to print another photo using instant print, but it was even gosh.
It has white borders with it, how can a black photoframe accommodate a white border photo?
I gave him both photos, why not, since i've printed them.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY 09 (:
The following are just some pages... (WARNING!!!- VERY MUSHY!)

Alright, now you may see the following.
Not mushy at all.
VERY FUNNY IN FACT!
Went to Wine & Cheese Appreciation Class.
I'd 9 glasses of wine, the white wine was really awesome.
HAHA!

QIU YAN'S FACE IS SUPER RED!!!

Went to treetop for company's long service award cum new year dinner.
I was supposed to be the emcee but oh well, wasn't in the mood.
So i didn't say anything at all.

& the reason is you

2009-02-10T07:47:00.000-08:00

ECD Presentation was alright, just that, I was too nervous!
Speaking like a machine gun! HAHA!!!

ECD Grades was way better than I expected.
Gosh! Was so worried that I will do badly.
Thanks to his prayers (:

Alright, I had Carls Junior for Lunch.
Let me tell you a secret, it's my first time eating there!!!
WOOHOO! (:

It's super awesome, ESPECIALLY THE BURGER!
The beefy cheese fries taste yummy too!
Rah, speaking of food, I'm getting a little hungry here.

THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON IS SUPER RECOMMENDED!
I watched it, and it was really touching.
Yee Choon agrees to it too! HEHE!
Went into GV Max, and it's even nicer than Cathay Cineplex's Grand Cathay! (:

Alright, I shall head to bed in a while.
Stop here for now (:

...幸福的事...

FPBUZZ

2009-02-07T10:34:00.000-08:00

VALENTINE'S DAY SALES! (:

Click!!!

Updates (:

2009-02-04T07:09:00.000-08:00

Alright!
My blog is pronounced DEAD! Haha!

I shall keep this short and sweet & make a complete post after exams (:

Golf session @ Tanglin Public Range.
It was truly fun and it's my first time wearing that cap though I brought it for 4 years.

I'm not there, I'm here!

Went to Esplanade with my family & relatives.
"Chun Dao He Pan" was truly awesome and impressive.
Gossiped with my aunt again! HAHA!
She's really funny.
Oh, I threw a coin into the wishing well, and hit on "Xue Ye You Cheng", just in one shot and it rebounced.
My cousin threw 15 coins? And she's get anything.

Hua Yi Performance outside Esplanade was very entertaining.
& I think they combined both dance, strength and music together impeccably.

Went JP with YC, XF, Wendy for purchase our cars & playdough on Monday!
Had an awesome lunch and finally gave YC, her birthday treat.

LOOK AT THIS TWO PICTURES!
Wendy ate the whole tub of ice-cream cum yoghurt herself!!!

Even XF & YC was staring at her! OMG!

...Thank you for everyday...

2009-01-03T11:46:00.001-08:00

Okay, I've posted the class chalet pictures but apparently, I was dumb enough to delete it again.
Gosh! :(

Anyways, I SUPER WANT THIS DRESS!
If you ever see it, inform me! (:

Reflection For 2008

2008-12-28T11:14:00.000-08:00

Okay okay, 2009 is coming.
It’s time for new year resolution already!
Frankly speaking, I don’t have much to write for this coming year as compared to last year when it was really tragic and horrendous.

Before my new year resolution, I should be reflecting on this year’s.
So…
1. To Forgive & Forget
I did it (:

2. To Be A Nice Person
Only to a certain extent, I suppose.
I became more selective rather on the people I choose to be nice with, which I think is pretty alright?
We can’t be nice to the whole world, I’m not that noble, if not, I’ve already gotten the Noble Prize.
Alright, that’s such a cold joke, back on track…

3. To Think Before I Talk
I still think it's fake to do so, but, yes, I did this.
BUT!!!
Only to certain people whom I think I should be cautious about, otherwise, this doesn't applies to you (:
Lester Lam says: "YOUR VICIOUS SIDE!"
MUAHAHA!!!

Life seems much peaceful and easier to handle, as compared to the previous year.
I've seen more of the evil side, as well as the kind side of life and I'm grateful for all that.
I shall save the credits and if you've helped me through this year, you'll know your efforts and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Now, my new year resolution! (:
Actually, I don't have much to write, maybe because I'm more than contented with my life now.

1) I guess I want to be slightly slimmer?
BUT hey, I would never ever go on a diet.
I guess I'll try to exercise more and control my craves.

2) Caring more for myself?
I guess I need to be less lazy.
Lazy to dress up,
Lazy to put on facial products,
Lazy to clean the room,
Lazy to control my diet...
With this, he will be more assured too.

3) LOCKED! (This resolution is locked, but you may try asking me!)

I think that's all for now.
I look for a splendid year ahead &
Secret, thank you for every little thing you've done! (:

THE GREATEST LOVE, It's coming from you (:

The Christmas

2008-12-26T09:42:00.000-08:00

THE MERRIEST MERRY CHRISTMAS!

You made me love you (:

Quick Update

2008-12-25T06:31:00.000-08:00

Alright, this is a quick update (:

I&E Botanic Garden

Christmas Eve Night

Christmas Morning & Afternoon

STUPID PHONE!

2008-12-19T08:21:00.000-08:00

OMG!

I SUPER DUPER LUPER WUPER WANT THAT IDIOTIC PHONE! :(

My mummy bought it right smack on my face, damn it!

I was fuming red at that moment and wanted to scold all the vulgar words from ENGLISH to CHINESE then to HOKKIEN!

If I know Cantonese, I would use it too.

That was how bad I wanted that phone!

& I should sincerely apologise to Lester for calling him just to vent my anger.

Sorry, Lester!

*[I know you understand (:]*

RAH!

GIVE ME THAT PHONE!

I KNOW I'M ACTING CHILDISH!~ :(

Babykins, I'd fun with you (:

I & E Event Day 1

2008-12-17T18:37:00.001-08:00

Finally, it's the first day of our event!
I don't have the photos with me, but it truly fun!

I think I got my new little boyfriend.
First, is Wei Kang!
Now, Bao Hui!
Actually, Shaine & Jia Wen is also in love with him.
No, I should say memerised by him.

His stupid loud voice, jokes and actions is really....ENTERTAINING!
I tried copying it at home, since Ariana says I've a talent for it.
My mum laughed when she heard that.

I WOULD LOVE TO WALKING AROUND THE NATURE RESERVE & HILLS AGAIN&AGAIN! (:
OMG! I've super big eye bags! :(

Lifeless

2008-12-16T06:41:00.000-08:00

Seriously.
Cherie, we are people with no life! :(
I've to admit.
Singapore is really a boring place.

Where can we go apart from eating, movie-ing, mind's cafe-ing, gossiping, suppering and clubbing?
GOSH!
Seriously, I can't stand such life anymore.

We need to get a sport that we would like to be addicted to.
& I guess we've chosen it!
BOWLING! (:
Let's do it, baby!

Test, requested by XF (:

2008-12-14T09:42:00.000-08:00

1. What is your full name?
Ang Yi Xuan Winnie

2. Are you single?
Duh.

3. What is your favourite number[s]?
1

4.What is/are your favourite colour?
Gray, Blue & Orange

5.Least favourite colour[s]?
Hmmm...I guess all colours in the world are nice?

6.What are you thinking now?
Should I or not.

7. Are you happy with your life right now?
Pretty much (:

8.What are your favourite subjects in school?
Currently? Tourism Law, I guess. It's very interesting though it's tough!

9. Do you shop at malls?
I guess everyone does so? Don't you shop for your daily necessities there?

10.Where do you wish to be right now?
MALAYSIA, SHOPPING! :(

11. What should you be doing now?
Watching my drama?

12.Do you have any crush on anyone?
Yes, I guess so?

13.When was the last time you bought a clothing item?
Two weeks ago, I think.

14. What was the last thing you drank?
Cabbage soup.

15. Do you hate liars? Do you hate backstabbers?
Pretty much, but I don't have a choice not to face them right?

16. Can you make yourself sneeze?
Yes! With the help of a mint.

17. Do you fall for people easily?
Yes, and I fall out easily too.
I mean only when he treat me really that bad, if not, I will stick with him.

18. What does your last text msg read?
"O and ya i wanna thank you for teaching me so many stuffs too! And i'm truely appreciative..."
Do I really have to type it all out?

19. Are you too forgiving?
I guess so, but only to certain people (:

20.How many windows are open on your computer?
3

21.Who was your last call from?
Teo Liqin

22.What do you do with most of your time?
Talk on the phone, watch my tv programmes & drama or hang out with my honey-s.

23.Will you & your ex get back again?
Dream on!

24.Do you sleep with the TV on?
Yes, always!

25. Which of your close friends live the closest?
Cherie Chen
Teo Liqin

26.Which item could you not live without during the day?
Hmmm...my TV? Handphone? Friends?

27. Would you share a drink with a stranger?
What's your definition of stranger?

28.How was your weekend?
Working, dinner with Lester (Sat)
Breakfast with Mummy & Aunt, TV Programmes & Chatting on the phone (Sun)

29.Do you believe ex[s] can be friends?
Yes, just like Jurrel & I?

30. The last person you quarrelled with?
Actually, I don't know! HAHA!
Mummy? Sister?

31.The way to win your heart?
Sincerity & Honesty

32.What did you do last night?
Dinner with Lester?

33. Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
Nope, neither do I want.

34.Are you looking for a boyf/girlf?
If he's the one, then he will be, so I don't think there's a need to find (:

35.One song that is meaningful to you?
Winner takes it all- Abba

36.Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
Twirl.

37.Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
I don't like milk, so what do you think?

38.How long is your hair?
Around the chest area.

39.Do you like batman?
Hmm...I don't like anything with masks!
But Batman is pretty handsome, HAHA.

40.Who was the last person who told you that they love you?
Tao yan, I shy! I shall not say it out loud.
The person will know (:

41.When was the last time you sang out loud?
Three days ago when I was watching the TV?

42.What did you have for breakfast?
Mee Hoon Kueh

43.Is your birthday on a holiday?
No, but I would love to.
I went clubbing on my birthday, just for your information.

44.Can you cook?
Yes, why?
You want to have a taste of it?
I love cooking!

45.Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
The Tee I'm wearing now? Eh, I'm not sure.

46.What was the reason for the last troubles you were in?
If I knew the reason, I wouldn't be troubling about it.

47.Which do you wear more? Sweats 0r Jeans?
Sweats.

48. When is your birthday?
Do I have a present for saying it?
15 Oct

49. Do you swear alot?
Nope, I don't see the need to.

50. What was your first achololic drink?
Beer, Mum pass it to me.

51.Do you have any regrets?
Yes. Not spending my secondary 1&2, the way I did during Sec 3&4.
But w/o the past, I won't grow to be who I am now (:

52. Who would you like to see now?
Dad.

53.Have the cops ever come to your house?
No! Why would they want to?

54. Are you a social or anti-social person?
Very sociable.

55.Who are your best friends? Are you still friends with them?
Cherie, Jennifer, Valerie, Yijun, my Cousin.
Of course! But I miss my Valerie very much, she's not with us for super long!

56. Ever been in love?
Duh, indulged in love every second.
Dad's Love, Mum's Love, Sister's Love & Friends' Love.

57. Ever had braces?
No, but I would want to.

58. What do you wear to bed?
Tee Shirt & Girl Boxer/ Panties

59.Who was the last person who disappointed you?
Eh, I don't see the need to say it out since there's no use saying it.

60. Do you trust people?
Only after analysing their behaviour.

61. Who was the first person you talk to today?
Lester

62. Who was the first person who text you today?
Lester

63. What was the first thing you did today?
Answer the phone call by Lester?

64.Ten people to tag:
Russell Teoh, Teo Liqin, Chu Wen, Lester Lam, Cherie Chen, Leo...I can't think of any anymore! WAHAHA!

Babykins

2008-12-13T09:58:00.000-08:00

You're truly appreciated! (:

...I know you're seeing this...

Lucky

2008-12-11T01:31:00.000-08:00

Do you hear me,
Talking to you.
Across the water across the deep blue ocean,
Under the open sky,
Oh my, baby,
I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams,
I feel your whisper across the sea,
I keep you with me in my heart,
You make it easier when life gets hard.

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend,
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again...
Woo~

They don't know how long it takes,
Waiting for a love like this.
Every time we say goodbye,
I wish we had one more kiss.
I'll wait for you I promise you,
I will.

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend,
Lucky to have been where I have been,
Lucky to be coming home again.

Lucky we're in love every way,
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed,
Lucky to be coming home someday.

And so I'm sailing through the sea,
To an island where we'll meet.
You'll hear the music fill the air,
I'll put a flower in your hair.

Though the breezes through trees,
Move so pretty you're all I see.
As the world keeps spinning round,
You hold me right here right now.

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend,
Lucky to have been where I have been,
Lucky to be coming home again.

Lucky we're in love every way,
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed,
Lucky to be coming home someday.

Woo~
Woo~

Exams & Credits!

2008-12-10T08:34:00.001-08:00

EXAMS IS FINALLY OVER!
2 BORING WEEKS HAS FINALLY ENDED! (:

But during these weeks, there's some people who stood by me,
& kept me entertained!
I shall give you people some credits!

1. Lester
2. Yee Choon
3. Daniel
4. Russell
5. Chu Wen
6. Cherie
7. Liqin
8. Joshua
9. Roston
10. Others (: *[You know who you're!]*
THE ABOVE IS NOT IN SEQUENCE EXCEPT THE FIRST ONE!

SPM is a total screw up!
But luckily I still remembered Shenn's presentation "DANCING MAT"!
Thank goodness for Shenn, if not, I will be in dire straits.

Oh well, exams are over!
I can have all the fun I want to!
SHOPPING, GOSSIPING, DATING, PROJECT-ING,...
WooHoo! ((:
Can't wait for my everyday in holidays!
I would believe it would be super fun and interesting!
Look forward to it! WHEE!

I went out with Cherie, moments ago.
WE WENT HOME SUPER DUPER LUPER EARLY?
LIKE 10.45PM?
First time in these 6 months!
Gosh, Singapore is really a bore.
Fly me to other places!
I WANT TO GO SHOPPING WITH CHERIE & JEN @ Malaysia!

Moments, we create...

.Babykins, this is for you.

Wedding @ Hilton

2008-11-29T08:55:00.001-08:00

Guess who's wedding is it?
It's the cousin that I hate the most!
My dad kept comparing me and her in the past and still, now!
& that's why I hate her.
& She has this arrogant and shit face that I would just slap her if she talks to me.
So what if she's rich?
So what if she's smart?
Do I look like I give a damn?

Anyway, today's her wedding,
& so, I still wish her and give her my blessing (:
I maybe evil sometimes, but not to that extreme.
HAHA!
She had her wedding at Hilton @ Singapore,
and I think that she's just being stupid.
Because the ballroom looks like one for meeting or product launch instead of those for Weddings!
Anyway, she just want to display her "richness" so let's just ignore her stupidity!
(Her family is rich, but the guy's family...err...)

It has been long since I attended a Wedding,
So I TOOK A LOT OF PHOTOS! (:

I WOULD THINK THAT THIS IS THE PRETTIEST! (:

MUMMY&HERDAUGHTER!

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WITH MY SISTER!
& I like the way she dress today (:

COUSINS ON THE GO!
Look at my stupid face, gosh!

THE BUBBLE CAKE?

GIFTS.

& THE CAMWHORER PLUS DRUNK GIRL! (:

I think he's interested in me!

Boredom

2008-11-27T10:47:00.000-08:00

I'm buried in the land of books! :(
& I need time!

True Friends

2008-11-26T09:58:00.000-08:00

In times of trouble, you'll know who's the best for you.
Who's there for you, always and forever!

After always listening to others saying about this,
After watching all the dramas,
Now, i've truly experience it.

& you can differentiate who's the best for you,
& who's not!

I called up *********,
Apparently, ********* has the ability to help,
But chose not to help! (I'm not talking about Shaine or Ashton, Thank you girls between!)
Anyways, i've seen the true colours of *********!
All the best in your life and thank you for the "help"!

I would like to truly thank Dennis! (: (He's the one who helped me, as in truly helped!)
You are still the best ever!

Not my style! (:

2008-11-25T01:19:00.000-08:00

Let's keep this post SHORT&SWEET!

LIFE'S BORING WITHOUT CHERIE!
LIFE'S BORING WITHOUT MY COUSIN!
LIFE'S BORING WITH EXAMS!!!
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Thinking I'm ending the post?
HAHA, I'm! (:
I'll not be blogging till after exams.
Meanwhile, enjoy "MY COOLNESS!"

Newsbites.

2008-11-18T08:37:00.000-08:00

CORSETS FOR NEWSBITES (:

Falling in love?

2008-11-08T10:09:00.000-08:00

I'm really afraid of falling in love now, I guess.
It's been 3 years plus since my last boyfriend.
& Frankly speaking, "LOVE" this word seems pretty alien to me.
I know I'll have to fall for it one day,
But that day just seems really far.
If I do have a chance one day, I don't know whether I will even make that move.

Love, it comes with committment and responsibility.
& I don't know whether I'm capable of handling it.
Just like tea, Love needs to be slowly brewed till the real taste comes out.
I love tea, but I don't know whether I'll love Love.
GOSH!
This is so confusing~
(I'm acting like a kid now! SHAME SHAME!)

Loves (:

2008-10-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

Went over to Ms Clarity Cafe with NYC, XF & Ivan!
Thank you for the birthday treat!
Love you girls (:

http://missclaritycafe.com/
I'm getting fatter, yo! :(
BUT I'M SO NOT GOING ON A DIET!

A candid shot that I would like to keep forever (:
Hope my sister don't see this! If not, she'll kill me!
Oops, she saw! :(
She just whacked me!

Updates!

2008-10-25T11:15:00.000-07:00

This is what I was doing on my birthday morning~
To think of it, it's pretty fun!
Business in Tourism @ Ngee Ann!

Our dark eerie room!

I'm doing my "bed scene"!
Yee Choon, don't look at me!!!
You're so scary! HAHA.

I did some stupid things today, look at this!

Whoopie, my SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS!

He's swinging~

Close-up!

My niece (:
She looks a little blur, pardon her!

Right Now, NANANA!

Him!

2008-10-24T09:23:00.000-07:00

Clubbing date is set! (:

Finally, get to go again.

I think I'm crazy over clubbing now.

I'm more into dancing songs, and I will even dance on the bus now.

I'm so so so dying!

School's killing me, I'm so stressed over Tourism Law!

Though it's interesting~

Gotta really start working hard!

He's the only one I missed even after so long.

Thank you (:

Shut my mind!

2008-10-23T19:31:00.000-07:00

I'm, but I won't.
So don't worry, don't fret.
I won't put you in the hall of fame,
But neither would I put you in the hall of shame.

I could be an easy prey,
but i'm also a tough predator.
Don't ever let me catch you,
or if not, you would be a waste.

Create, Created.
Soon be forgotten.

If you believe in rumours, you are just a loser!

THE HANDWRITING TEST!

2008-10-16T10:34:00.000-07:00

This is a test that i've done.
Really wordy but yes, it's freaking true!

Ang is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Ang will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Ang an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Ang is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Ang is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Ang doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Ang will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Ang believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
Ang will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Diplomacy is one of Ang's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Ang can disagree without being disagreeable.

In reference to Ang's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Ang slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Ang can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Ang is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Ang basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Ang is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Ang is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.

Ang is selective when picking friends. She does not trust everyone. She has a select group of people that are truly close to her, usually two or three. She is careful when choosing her inner circle of friends.

Ang has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Ang exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Ang allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Ang has a vivid imagination.

The Birthday Celebrations!

2008-10-16T09:40:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO!
Finally, LEGALLY EIGHTEEEEEEEN!!!

CLUBBING IS THE FIRST TO GET DOWN WITH! (:
I went clubbing with my HONEYPIES, BACK TO SQUARE FOUR.
Cherie, you know what I meant. HAHA!
IT'S SUPER DUPER LUPER FUCKING AWESOME, MAN!
Oh, between, I went to Zouk, but the music was like....
So switched over to PHUTURE.
My Cousin & Jen's Cousin came along!
Long islang tea taste really yuck-y, I want my Lychee Martini.
BOO!!!

Anyways, the next time I'm there,
Leo, let's challenge!
2 Jugs each (:

The "LIGHT"&"DARK" people!

Oops, got caught on the phone!

My lovely dovey-s! (:

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CELEBRATION WITH ENVOYS! (:
Out with Liqin, Gifford, Arthur, Brenda, Sanjiv, Vanessa, Jac, Elda and Shawn to Waffletown&Decorders' Cafe.

Shawn's treat!
Yummy waffle with rum&raisins!

Group picture!
It's been long since we'd a picture.

I LOVE THIS PICTURE! (:

Thank you, people & your gifts (:

Man's Nature

2008-10-10T13:09:00.000-07:00

Man,
One of the most amazing creatures in the world.
Wait, just to clarify, my Man here refers to Guys, Boys and Man! (:

Okay, back on track.
Man,
One of the most amazing creatures in the world.
They could instantly change what they want to say and what they want to do in a second,
Ha, maybe it's less than a second.
It's faster than the Meteor Shooting.

Hmmm...
To think of it, Man are a little like Meteor Shooting.
I mean the process.
Okay, the below part is a bit difficult to understand,
But just note this equation,
It'll help you pretty much.

MAN= METEOR SHOOTING

Man give you hope,
Perhaps for just a second.
But you'll be more than contented,
Not wanting anymore from them.

The Meteor Shooting (Refering to the Man's relationship with you) is definitely beautiful,
& once in a lifetime experience.
Short span, but you don't mind trying.
Knowing that the wish you made from the Meteor Shooting (Man),
May not come true,
You still want to get a taste of it.
For if you don't,
You might regret.
Cause' the wish you made from the Meteor Shooting might come true.
(Which means you'll get married with the Man)

I heard from many,
Saying that Man just wants to get his pride.
And I guess that evolved the Flirting, Flings & ALL THE F-s,
If you can think of any (:

Someone told me this;
Do you know in ******,
Guys just know 3 words that starts with the letter "F"?
The 3 words are,
Find HER,
Fuck HER,
& Forget HER.
HAHA,
What a joke right?

Hmm...I'd some reflection just now,
While I was looking at the Flyer.
Thinking about *************, Friends & Family.
Eh, the last two starts with "F" too.
HAHA, okay, Stop my F-ing.
It triggered me to make some decisions,
and told me I'd to be decisive.

I guess I just didn't want to face it,
just like Man, I guess.
I needed my pride.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HONEY CHERIE!

2008-10-05T21:54:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHEN XUE LING CHERIE!

My dearest friend, we'd been friends for 6 years.
& it's definitely honourable to be your friend.
I still could recall the times when I just knew you,
in Girl Guides.
With that nerd-dy face,
Skinny legs (IT'S STILL SKINNY NOW!),
& Real short-y skirt.

Now you're a beauty,
a beauty with confidence, truthful-ness and a tinie winie bit of stubborn-ness!
(& that's why we're friends! HAHA.)

This entry is specially for you (:
I wanted to post all the old photos,
but I guess you'll kill me if I do so.
WAHAHA!

THOSE SHUTTER SPECS!

I think you look better in that ALIEN ITEM!

Aw, the ambience is so NICE at Marche~
Leo should siam man, then I can have a real lesbian date with you (:

LOOK AT HIS NERDY FACE!
SLAP HIM MAN!!!
WAHAHA.

THE REAL BIG STRAWBERRY FROM THE FRUITY CAKE.

IT'S FIVE TIMES BIGGER THAN MY EYES!

My ZI.

SOMEONE SAID, HE'S MY BOYFRIEND!

NO WAY, HE'S MY NERDY COUSIN!!! (:

Waiting for seats at Ben&Jerry,

Is a real pain!

WOOLALA~ WE'VE GOT SEATS,

THOUGH IT'S A LITTLE CRAMPED.

I'M SO INTO SNAKE!

Looks like I'm not the only one~

MY HIGHEST SCORE WAS ONLY 2800.

WHO THE HELL IS THAT?

EW. SHUTTER SPECS GHOST!

Aw~ How lovely.

Cherie's birthday was a total tiring day.

House Bunny with Nachos & Chips,

Marche,

Ben&Jerry,

Supper at Geylang & Railway Mall.

Geylang's ****** got much standards nowadays.

Okay~

I shall not talk about such stuffs.

But oh well, GELYANG'S FOOD ARE REALLY TEMPTING & NICE! (:

Just like their ****** (To Guys).

Your long & enjoyable day ends at Railway Mall with My Teh O.

Reality.

2008-09-29T10:00:00.000-07:00

We made Life so complicated,
When all we wanted was that simple.

Belinda said before,
Dreams starts from Day-dreaming,
& I agree.
It keeps your mind working at least for a second more.

What we wanted,
Always seems like a dream,
& that it will never come true.
It always seems distant to me,
& I know i'll never get it,
Though I tried.

No matter how hard I tried,
I was unable to reach it.
Maybe, I was being thought of a fool for a moment,
However, I accept that very moment.
At least, I tried.
I've no regrets.

One song that made me cried during Mamma Mia;
The Winner Takes It All:

I don't wanna talk,
About the things we've gone through.
Though it's hurting me,
Now it's history.
I've played all my cards,
And that's what you've done too.
Nothing more to say,
No more ace to play.

The winner takes it all,
The loser standing small.
Beside the victory,
That's her destiny.

I was in your arms,
Thinking I belonged there.
I figured it made sense,
Building me a fence,
Building me a home.
Thinking I'd be strong there,
But I was a fool.
Playing by the rules.
The gods may throw a dice,
Their minds as cold as ice.
And someone way down here,
Loses someone dear.

The winner takes it all,
The loser has to fall.
It's simple and it's plain,
Why should I complain.
But tell me does she kiss,
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same,
When she calls your name?

Somewhere deep inside,
You must know I miss you.
But what can I say,
Rules must be obeyed.
The judges will decide,
The likes of me abide.
Spectators of the show,
Always staying low.
The game is on again,
A lover or a friend,
A big thing or a small.

The winner takes it all,
I don't wanna talk.
If it makes you feel sad,
And I understand.
You've come to shake my hand,
I apologize if it makes you feel bad.
Seeing me so tense,
No self-confidence.
But you see,
The winner takes it all,
The winner takes it all...
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It is what I'd to say.

Rules has to be obeyed.

The Craziest Lovable Times (:

2008-09-28T13:06:00.000-07:00

I'm going to take a Picture of YOU&ME,
& I'll frame it up! (:

THIS HOLIDAY!
The best-est of the best-est holidays I ever had.
Having fun almost everyday, & most importantly, being with all my loved ones.
(Though, I did pissed off my Mummy.)

I'm addicted to Singing again.
OMG!
Thinking of it, what made that happened, was the night out with Xueling to KBOX.
I went singing again last Wednesday.
FROM 11PM-5.30AM.
OMG, it's awesome, i'm telling you.
(BUT I'M GETTING REAL BROKE CAUSE' OF SINGING!)
I'm going singing on Tuesday & Friday again, I can't wait.

CLOTHES!!! (:
I never ever so wanted to buy clothes before.
Vests, Dresses & Tees, I'm so coming for you!

I'd like 4 movies this 3 weeks down?
& ALL OF THEM WAS AT CINELEISURE.
I think Cine loves Me now! (:
Went movie with Xuanfang & Yee Choon on last Tues, I think.
IT HAS BEEN LONG SINCE I WATCHED HORROR FILM.
We watched Mirrors & I guess I only watched half of the entire movie.
I was freaked off,
Call me loser,
Call me scared cat,
I don't care,
Cause I'm really scared &
There's nothing to hide!
Today, went out with XL to watch Mamma Mia,
AWESOME! (I've downloaded all the songs! Whee-ha!)
When I was watching Mamma Mia,
I saw the Mirror's Preview,
Guess what?
There was so many scenes that I didn't remembered watching.
Ghee, what was I doing, man!
HAHA.

He's the sweetest, I've ever met.

Thank you for the every moment that we had, I'll treasure them.

Losers At 18

2008-09-22T02:15:00.000-07:00

Saturday (20.09.08),
Was one of the best days I had,
Ever since I've entered Polytechnic.
Let's see what happened.

I started off working from 12.30pm-5.30pm,
& was truly occupied by work,
Photocopying, Stapling, Distributing WS, etc..
Before I started work (when I was still on my bed),
Guess What?
Someone whom I didn't expect,
Sms-ed ME!
LOW MEILING VALERIE.

That lovely honeypie of mine,
she must be busy with boyfriend that she've forgotten about us.
BOO YA!
Anyways, it was really nice of her, just even to sms me.

Anyway, I shall continue that story of mine.
I headed down to Bugis, after work.
Reason being, TO READ THAT BOOK "WHY MEN MARRY BITCHES?" & to find, Dennis.
I finished reading that book, however, if possible, I would still like to have that book.
In Singapore, BOOKS ARE FREAKING EXPENSIVE!

Back on track, Dennis wanted to have dinner together with his friends and I,
& I felt a little uncomfortable,
so I left and called Daniel out.

It was just a random call and I was expecting him to say "No" to my dinner request.
BUT!!! He agreed & we had our dinner at "MOS" Burger.
That Curry Croquette was really awesome.
He sent me home after that and guess what again?

CHEN XUELING, CALLED ME OUT.
We searched all possible places to hang out at 12 midnight,
Movies, KTV etc, and we decided to go for Singing @ Top One,
as it was cheaper than K Box.
It was our first time out at such a timing,
I mean, we stayed out so late before,
but not going out at this timing.
HAHA!

We met and took the train down to Bugis,
and guess what now.
THE TRAIN SERVICE ENDED AT JURONG EAST!
& We now, have to go to K BOX!!!
BOO YA.
It's the same as before.

Singing was truly fun,
just that there was some guy that was disturbing,
but he's sweet enough to pass me his JACKET W HIS CIGARETTE SMELL.

K BOX WAS LIKE A FREEZER!!! (:
Anyways, XUELING, YOU ROCK.
Promise! Once a month.

We are LOSERS @ 18.

Right into my heart (:

2008-09-22T01:58:00.000-07:00

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

Directionless

2008-09-01T09:52:00.000-07:00

Exams are FINALLY over!
I've been wondering why I am so slack for this semester's exams.

I don't feel the stress that I usually do feel,
I don't cry for that I usually do,
I don't seem to want to work hard,
I've losing the "Usual" feeling that I have always been feeling.
I hope it is just temporary and my "Usual-s" will come back to me,
& My Results would be fine, maintaining my "Usual".

It's good that I'm not crying over exams anymore,
& Joshua Lee Wei Shen, Kud0-s to You! ((:

Anyways, I went for AEM (Annual Economic Minister's Meeting) from Tuesday-Friday.
It was really interesting and I learn pretty much from it.
Thank you, Ivan!
(For that opportunity!)

NOW!
Let's look at my wonderful art piece done for my tuition centre! (:

Not bad huh?
(You may comment over at the Tagboard!)

I've removed certain parts for it's confidential,
& I KNOW I SPELLED WRONGLY FOR "TRAIL"
But oh well, I've edited it.

Heading over for my swim tomorrow at Jen's house,
shall see after one esp of 命中注定我爱你! (:

命中注定我爱你, locked the highest ratings in all of Taiwan (for idol dramas) for that particular time segment,
So please do watch it,
For you'll not regret! (:

Whee (:

2008-08-09T06:46:00.000-07:00

"Don't compare yourself with anyone in this world;
if you compare, you are insulting yourself.
No one will manufacture a lock without key;
similarly god won't give problems without solutions.
Life laughs at you when you are unhappy...
Life smiles at you when you are happy...
Life salutes you when you make others happy...
Every successful person has a painful story.
Every painful story has a successful ending.
Accept the pain and get ready for the success.
Easy is to judge mistakes of others.
Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes.
It is easier to protect your feet with slippers than to cover the earth with carpet.
No one can go back and change a bad beginning;
but anyone can start now and create a successful ending.
If a problem can be solved, no need to worry about it.
If a problem cannot be solved, what is the use of worrying?
If you miss an opportunity don't fill the eyes with tears.
It will hide another better opportunity in front of you.
Mistakes are painful when they happen.
But years later collection of mistakes is called experience,
which leads to success.
"Changing the face" can change nothing,
But "facing the change"can change everything.
Don't complain about others; change yourself if you want peace.
Be bold when you lose and be calm when you win.
Heated gold becomes ornament.
Beaten copper becomes wires.
Depleted stone becomes statute.
So the more pain you get in life you become more valuable."

Sounds real nice & true huh.
Quoted from: TEO LI QIN
Edited by: Winnie

Feelings

2008-08-02T01:08:00.000-07:00

Smile to Believe (:

It has been a long time since I've been with ******.
I truly missed those days, and I know it might not be back.
I'm prepared.

"WOW" Day, was definitely a MAKANING SESSION!
Anyways, I had lots of fun laughing with the girls in the photo!
Love you girls (:

I don't know if you'll see this.
If you just realised what I've just realised.

My Smile (:

2008-07-24T20:28:00.000-07:00

Finally!
I've opened up my blog.
I apologise for keeping it private for the past months as there are something that I was venting anger on and I don't want it to affect anyone, thus, I kept my blog private.

Anyways, I'm back!
Things are getting better this time round as compared to the past.
I understand what I really want and what I would like to discard in order to make my life better.
I haven't been being myself for pretty long & I want the true me back.
My laughter and smile don't seem to be as wide as before, as loud as before.
My temper has been real bad and I've been venting my anger on certain people.
I would like to apologise and give credit later on in this post. (Please keep looking!)
Anyways, since I know what is wrong, I will now change.
Change for the better.
I will have my smile back.
I've been on the phone with Jyen last night & when I was talking to him, I found myself.
I have been laughing and giggling just like the past & I love every single part of it.
I will be the real me, I promise (:

Now, are the Credits.
[If your name is not there, don't fret, because you have always been in my heart, no matter what happens, unless you're...(haha, secret!)]
This is not in order (:

1. Teo Li Qin
Girl, you've always been the few reasons why I still exist in ******.
& I know I've been venting anger on you which I don't know why.
Perhaps, I'm tired of just talking about those things.
Perhaps, I'm wear out of the surrounding happening.
Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps, there are so many Perhaps.
I know there are no excuses for such things and I promise I will think of your feelings.
I really need to apologise to you & I hope you would forgive me.
Let's skip those unhappy, unwanted memories of ours. Our topic now starts fresh and skip that stupid topic of ours (:
Thank you for being in my life.
I love you, truly love you. ("v")

2. Wendy, Xuanfang, Yee Choon
Hello, girls! (:
I have been with you girls since the start of the semester and I really appreciate every single one of you.
I know it is abrupt of me to suddenly appear in your everyday life & I don't know whether you find me a nuisance a not but I really enjoy the days with you girls.
Be it in projects, during lunch, or even just having fun in Clarke Quay & Boat Quay.
Thank you for everyday, you make my world a better place to be in (:

3. Ivan
Still, thank you for smashing my phone huh! RAH!
I forget what I want to type out actually. WAHAHA!

4. Gifford, Illias, Brian, Shawn
Hey, dudes!
Thank you for all these while and you're all the few reasons why I'm still hanging there.

Gifford:
Thank you for listening to my nagging every single now and then & I love those food we had tgt and I'm looking forward to those that we'll have next time.

Illias:
You! SELL ME YOUR MONKEYS! (:
You're the best! You know what I mean.
Thank you for everything.

Brian & Shawn:
I love those times we had and even now at the UNDERPASS!
Thank you! (From my deepest of my heart!)
Let's study tgt!!! (:

5. Jyen
Thanks for the chat last night & helping me in my project.
You've been the one that made me really happy and enlightened.
I know it may sound a little sudden but it's a fact.
I haven't been so me for so freaking long!
I was truly laughing out from my heart. Thank you! (:
I hope our friendship will never end, and I know it won't (:

6. Russell
Thank you, my dear stuffed toy.
You've been my motivation & support every time when I nearly fall.
Your endless topic about "them", didn't piss me off but actually, brought me joy and laughter.
I would like to thank god for letting me know you and be friends with you.
You're truly my stuff toy & only stuff toy.

7. Red Revolution
I shall not name anyone here because you know who you are.
Thank you for the support that you gave even just a short message to motivate me.
The camp was awesome, without you guys, I can't make it till there.
Love you all! (:

8. Certain Envoys Members
You know who you are once again.
Your motivation & support, I really appreciate those.
You guys rock! Keep rocking!

9. Sister, Mummy & Daddy
Without you, I won't be here.

10. Honeypies!
Words can't express how much I love you all! (:
You're the flavour in my life!

11. BAOC Daredevil 2

12. Cerise, Shaine, Shenn, Belinda, Grace, Ying Hui (:

13. Chu Wen

XIE XIE NI MEN! (:

Hidden Meanings.

2008-06-05T03:44:00.000-07:00

Four Parts, One Story.

The story that we've been telling is all about YOU.
4 Parts, 1 Story.
You think it's random huh, it's not ((:
There are 4 parts to this story,
with different people in different parts,
& You are not in this different different parts,
because You are the story being told.
In the end, you'll face all the consequences,
i'll look at you & perhaps, laugh at you.

Broken Pieces, Missing Faces.

Everything that used to be as a whole,
Broke down,
Into pieces and pieces.
& Can those ever be back to what I used to know?
I don't think so...
The familiar faces that I used to see,
Seems blurred.
I tried to feel, tried to touch it,
but I can't seem to find it.
Was it missing or was I unable to figure where was it?
I don't know & I don't really want to know...

Utter disappointment.

---(Private, ask me if you want to know)

九层糕.

九层糕 is made up of layers & each with a different colour.
Just like layers and layers of Secret, said to cover for the other Secret.
It piles up and You stand at the Top, wondering which Lie you should say now.
Once, the Secret gets unfold and peel out layer by layer,
You'll eventually get back to the ground,
Wounded & Tired.

I'm Sitting Beside Start & End.

I now have to decide whether I should choose the Start or the End.
If I choose the Start, it means i've to restart everything again & with a Risk.
If I choose the End, it means i can bring everything to a Stop.
If I'm the usual me, i'll choose the first option, because I always love challenges.
However, I'm really tired.
So tired that I can't even take another step forward or backwards.
I think i've decide & you'll eventually see my decision.
You'll then have to understand that I'm not obligated to do anything for you,
& I didn't promise you any single thing.
I just told you, i'll try but no promises...

((:

2008-05-08T21:23:00.000-07:00

My mum says:
To totally give up means you have no stop talking about her.
No more to do with her in your conversation.
If you still have her in your conversation, it means that you still care.

I agree with that.
I gave up and thereby, I should stop my complains about her.
It never works if I only complain.
I have to do something to make things work.
However I decide not to, because she don't listen ((:

Before she ends in my blog.
I have something to say.
She LOVES to be the CENTRE OF ATTRACTION.
We can don't be there for events, but she has to.
She feels that she's on that position already, she's important!
(That's how she feels)
She says: We have to stop being dependent on the Sexco-s.
What a joke, that's how I felt.

She now finally ends in my blog. ((:

I went for work and my boss got me to do something.
"Do a poster! ((: Include this message in the poster!"
PLEASE FLUSH THE TOILET AFTER DOING YOUR BUSINESS-ES
& I did this.
'PLEASE FLUSH THE TOILET,
[A picture of a person covered by shit, and a toilet bowl with a bomb.]
AFTER PEE-ING & POO-ING ((:'

My boss was laughing like MAD!
I ❤ THE POSTER! (:

Laughing! (:

2008-05-04T20:13:00.000-07:00

I really laughed!
Laughed out loud at her stupidity.
I don't understand why she don't understand.
Is she dumb, or is she acting dumb?
I don't understand and I don't wish to understand.
Call me selfish, call me evil.
I don't really care.
I will test your limits.
Till, your limits make you realised that you have to stop.

The only way to make someone who don't understand,
Realise that she didn't understood is to:
LET HER BANG INTO THE WALL & BLEED!
*[I know I'm really evil BUT I bet you guys like it (: ]*

I start to analyse.
Analyse everything that she says, she does.
Her words & actions seems to have a hidden meaning.

I start to doubt.
Doubt because you doubted me.
I start to believe that whatever you say, has a hidden meaning.
I used to believe you, but you betrayed my trust.

God made it fair, you became ugly.
Ugly.
Really ugly.
& Your pimples came out.
*[LQ said so, but I agree]*

You Failed as a Friend.
You Failed as a leader.
Failed as a friend because you used your friends.
Used them as stepping stones to achieve what you want.
Failed as a leader because you didn't know where you're going.
If what you going to do now, is to get more people on your side.
Go ahead, I'm prepared for the worst.
(:

I Gave Up

2008-05-03T12:29:00.000-07:00

I used to be happy for you, because I thought you could make it.
Now, I am not.
Not happy because you didn't understand.
You go your way, and want others to follow and believe in you.
I tried helping you, but you didn't get it.

You keep insisting that I was the one who needs to understand, that I need to listen to you.
I listened.
"STOP BEING LIKE MY MUM!"
"DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO, I KNOW WHAT TO DO!"
That's what you told me.

I stopped.
Stopped helping & guiding you.
I thought you deserve my help, because you're my friend.
A friend that I would like to help.
I can't say I'm awesome in coping with life, but I have seen more.
More of the ugly side of the world.
You reject, rejected my help because you said you understood.

I laugh, laughed at your stupidity.
I know I shouldn't.
But, I gave up.
Gave up in this meaningless struggle.

Now, I will just sit back and relax.
I will see what will happen and laugh when you finally understand.
I know I'm evil, evil because I should have guided you.
I used to promise someone to protect you, but I think I have to break this promise.
Because I don't have the ability.

Understood?

2008-05-02T00:05:00.000-07:00

This has nothing to do with this post (:
It's RANDOM!

She's calling me in a while for a trash talk.
I don't know if I can handle.
Things are going too fast, too fast for me to catch up!
I need time, and that's all.
Are you going to wait? I don't think so.
Maybe it's my fault, for making things too complicated.

I thought it was something simple.
I mean, I had never been through this.
Ever since, I have been into Polytechnic.
Human relationship is one of the toughest that I had to manage, which was something that was easy for me in the past.
From polytechnic classmates to now, Envoys.
I'm worried.
Should I do my part or just leave it as it is?
I'm talking too much, I think.

I need to talk.
But I don't know who to confide to.
I think I will have to trust myself, and only Myself.
I need to sort things out myself.
Now that I realised, We had never took a photo together before...

Tennis.
Should I? (:

Confused

2008-05-01T10:34:00.000-07:00

This is the first time after so long that I had posted.
I had no one to confide to and that's why I am here.

People tend to live in their own world.
They have never experience the world's greatest misery.
I had to laugh, I guess.
God has made it fair to everyone.
Sometimes it is a bliss that you had never experience misery but because of that, you think the world is kind.
Kind to everyone?

No!

The world is evil, full of selfish people.
They lived for their own gains and they lived to laugh at the tragic ones.
I despise them, and I laugh at them by doing so.
They, themselves are the tragic ones.
They are ALONE! Always Alone! :)

You see me, laughing at them.
HA! I maybe the evil ones.
I don't know.
I don't even know which direction I'm heading to.
I'm making my life tragic by laughing at them .
I'm contradicting.
Contradicting myself.

Sometimes, I don't understand.
Things happen for a reason, but I can't seem to find the reason.
I talked to Gifford and he told me that I had done my best.
Searching for the reasons that lies within.
Still,
I don't seem to know.
Maybe I should pretend.
Pretend that I know.
I guess, that makes life easier.

Thanks, Gifford.
You stood by me (:

A Year Has Passed.

2008-02-26T10:06:00.000-08:00

The Innocence Blowing In Me & My Time...

A Year Has Passed & In A Few Months Times, I'll be in Year 2.
Okey-Dokey,I shall talk a little about the modules that I took for these 2 semesters.

Semester 1:
Fundamental of MICE Management (FMM) (:
Introduction to Tourism & Resort Management (ITR) (: Whee~ My A Module!
Microeconomics (MIEC) (:
Business Communication (BCOMM) (: Hate it & Love it!
Sports & Wellness (S&W) (: The easiest thing you ever done!
Creative Applied Thinking (CATS) ): Boredom-ness... ... ... ... ...
Business Statistics (BSTATS) If you practice, you can do it!

Semester 2:
Hospitality Operation Management (HOM) (:
Food & Beverage Management (FABM) (:
Food & Beverage!!! Sounds yummy~
Macroeconomics (MAEC) (:
Individual & Community (IAC)
Life Management Skills (LMS)
Business Management (BMGT)
RAH!!! Irritating Shit! But I guess it will turn out nice with two 30 minutes of sleep ONLY!
Computer Information Processing (CIP) Screw it upside down MAN!

I Simply Love My Tourism Modules [Referring To FMM & ITR & HOM & FABM]!
They simply rock your socks!
Apart from those, uh uh! No way!
Maybe it was alright for ECONOMICS.
Pretty Interesting for me :)
Alright, let's cut it here!
I'm bullshiting...sounding more like a BS student now.
Oops! HAHA.

Time Flies, I must say.
In like a blink of eye, a year has passed.
Many things that I learnt as I go along.
What hit me the most was this phrase that I should:
"Never Assume!" Because, this is LIFE!

Lunar New Year

2008-02-25T00:24:00.000-08:00

Hate&Love MY LUNAR NEW YEAR.
Hate it because of Exams!
Love it because of gambling and ANG BAOs!!! (:
Love it because of the exaggerating way I wore! (:
Love it because I can see my cousins! (:

Only took pictures on one of the day which is Chu San.
There it is:

:) That's about New Year!

Exams Done! THANK YOU.

2008-02-24T23:51:00.000-08:00

All Down, Finally!
~~HOM~~
~~FABM~~
~~BMGT~~
~~MAEC~~
~~CIP~~ My Hardest Paper Of All!

I need to THANK those who gave me LOVE&SUPPORT during my hardest period of time.
(In Alphabetical Order)
Alexus Tai
Alvin
Ashton
Daddy
Edmund
Joshua
Liqin
Mei Mei
Mummy
Qiu Yan
Valerie

THANK YOU SO MUCH!
Without you guys, I can't make it there.
Loves! ("v")
I shall not say about the papers, because it's all over!
YEAH~!

I have been Mahjong-ing all these while after exams and even during exams!
HAHA.
Lost $ when I was at Shawn Ting's House. (During Exams)
Won $ when I was at Arthur Kong's House.
Won $ when I was at Zhi Wen's House.
Lost $ when I was at home.

Haven't see my cousin & his friends for so long.
Zong Da, Zhi Wen, Bing Qing, Kc & Zhi Wen.
Thank you so much for the FUN @ Zhi Wen's House :)

Mummy, I'm so sorry!
I know my mistakes already.
I will grow up from now onwards.
Thank you & Sorry!
I LOVE YOU, TRULY LOVE YOU.

Out With Jackie :)

2008-01-29T08:47:00.001-08:00

Lessons starts at 9!
But I'm going to skip that BMGT lecture! (Which means Lessons at 12 then.)
But then, I was suppose to wake up at 7 to meet Liqin, Ashton & Alex at KAP @ 9 for Mac Breakfast.
But... I woke up at 9! HAHA.
Called them to ask them where are they.
THE EXPECTED ANSWER: I'M ON MY BED!
WAHAHA.
So. I went back to sleep and the next moment, it was 12!
I said: Rah! I'm not going school then!
I stay at home to study my HOM.
4 hours for 1 Chapter. How efficient am I!
HAHA.

Hurried out to meet my Aussie Friend, Jackie & Corrine, Shu Yan and Jen.
That SHU YAN! She PS us again!
Anyways, we went to Mind's cafe. It has been long since the last time I went there.
We played lotsa of games! woo~
I was so hyper that Jackie says: Winnie! uh uh!
HAHA.
Love them :)

Went home with Jen & had a nice chat with her.
Get to know so much about her in that 1 hour chat.
Jen Baby, I love you.

Exams!

2008-01-28T20:44:00.000-08:00

Exams are just around the corner!
And there's like 5 modules for exams?
FABM
~~HOM~~ 2 more chapters!
BMGT
MAEC 3 more chapters!
CIP
I only have 16 Days more!
I don't want to screw this up!
:( GAMBATE!

"Success is not how high a person can climb, but how high he can bounce when he reaches the ground."

The Call

2008-01-24T12:18:00.000-08:00

"The love cloud."

On 24 Jan 2008,
I woke up and morning called Joshua Lee Wei Shen.
Guess what?
Winnie: Wake up! It's 8 already. You're going to be late!!! (Wake up*3)
Joshua: Eh. You very Irritating leh!
Winnie: Ai seh, call you wake up still can say I Irritating? RAH!

Inside the lecture hall,
Winnie: You damn Irritating leh! SHUT UP!
Joshua: Tsk tsk tsk. You only know one word is it?
Winnie: No! But you say I was Irritating! Fine! Joshua, you damn Annoying. Shut up!
Joshua: Tsk tsk tsk. I'm the trend-setter. AND You, is just the follower. TSK TSK TSK!
Winnie: ... ... ... ... ... Don't talk to you liao! :p

That Irritating SALTY DEER PIG.
A Pig with a curly tail!
Like this:

WAHAHA!!!

Chilling For Just A Moment

2008-01-24T12:12:00.000-08:00

Projects are all finally done :)
~~FABM~~
~~IAC~~
~~LMS~~
~~BMGT~~
I'm proud of my projects!
Finally! I can take a rest.

Open House 2008 was awesome!
I had lotsa of fun! I even break the red wine bottle!
" There, my happiness is gone!"
I think that I should somehow control my temper and don't let my facial expression show how was I feeling.
That was what Alexus Tai Zhi Han tells me.
Got to improve it in someways I guess.
Btw, Sorry Ashton for ps you, cause' I wasn't feeling good.
I was afraid that I might outburst.

Anyways, I'm going to have a NEW CHILL OUT place!
WOOLALA~
My dearest friend is going to move over RIGHT UNDER MY HOUSE!
And. I will be designing my dearest friend's room!
YAYNESS!!! It sounds SUPER DUPER LUPER INTERESTING!

I had a girl's talk with Ashton on Tuesday.
I came to realised certain things.
But well, not going to say it out there cause' it's our little secret. Sorry.
HAHA.

I have to say something evil here, but I will not mention the person's name.

HE/SHE IS SUCH A HYPOCRITE!!!

He/She wears a MASK to school.

I'm freaking sure, I'm going to do something about it.

YOU WAIT AND SEE!

The True Me :)

2008-01-23T10:21:00.000-08:00

I think this is pretty true :) YAYNESS!

JOSHUA LEE WEI SHEN SAYS IT'S NONSENSE!!! RAH!

What Winnie Means

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

My New Year Resolution.

2008-01-01T23:18:00.000-08:00

A new year has arrived.
2008 :)
One SPLENDID year according to Devon Tan Xiang Ming.

There comes my New Year Resolutions:
1. To Forgive & Forget
2. To Be A Nice Person
3. To Think Before I Talk

In 2007, many things had happened.
May it be class issues, family issues or friends issues.
May it be good or bad.
I went through a lot and through those, I learnt a lot.
Joshua has been consulting me for very long. Since Oct 2007, I guess.
HAHA.
BUT I only get enlighten on 26 Dec 2007.
I think he's super pissed with my dumbness.

I learnt that:
1. In life, you can never please everyone AND you can't expect everyone to like you.

2. To forgive and forget.
Cause' the more you are unwilling to let go of the unhappy, the more it bugs you.

3. To be a Nice person.
I must admit that I'm NOT a nice person for the past 17 years.
I'm selfish but come on, who's not. AGREE?
Life has been training us to believe only in OURSELVES.
But I suppose I have to abandon all these thoughts and start to be a nice person.

4. To think before I talk.
Though I think that to think before you talk is a bit FAKE.
But come to think of it. It makes me more careful of the words I use and it will improve the way I project myself.
I don't know about this but there has been someone saying that I like to use this phrase:
"You don't know meh?" - meaning that I'm proud and want to be different from them.
I asked Valerie about this, but she says it's pretty okay.
But well, as I said. In life, you can never please everyone (:

Life is complicated I must say.
I don't know about this, but I always ask my mummy:
"Why did you gave birth to me? Why did you bring me to this world?"
I know it's hurting for her, but she always say:
" ALEMAK! YOU LAI LE." - she's saying this again!
HAHA.
My mummy is super cute! LOVE HER SO MUCH.

I'm willing to change for the better.
But is anyone out there willing to accept? I don't know.

This is an EMO post.
But you people better get used to it. I'm going to do a lot of that in here from now. (:

Loves,
Winnie

P.S.: Take cares.